Long weeks

This is the first morning that I haven't been treated to puking, so I thought I'd drop a quick line.

My right eye is a mess. I get sea sick using the computer.

Email is nearly impossible.

Facebook is a drive by at best.

For the first time in 30 years, I do no own a car. With my eyes and the meds, I was just scared to death that I was going to hurt someone. Now, I don't have that worry.

I'm currently working with Hospice, taking between 5 and 10 meds trying to find a comfort level in pain management that also allows me to be functional. It seems like it's going to be either one or the other but not both at the same time.

Mom and Dad and Sis have been a terrific help, they come by for visits often. I have to watch those too, though, as they take a toll on me too.

I'm trying to learn to ask for more help. That is so very hard for me to do. I'm a "I can do it myself" kind of guy. Asking for help just bites.

Ok.. I'm pooped now. Time to take of the eye patch and see if I can get Un-sea sick.

Wow...what a week.

I have been sooo frigging sick.

Out of the last week, I didn't hurl 2 of them.

My body is so sore.

Who needs a gym, right?

Hospice has started coming to my home. They're working on a concoction that will settle my stomach. Once we get that dialed in, we work on other issues that have been hurting/bugging/troubling me.

I'm sleeping good finally, and that's nice... I just wish I wasn't sleeping so dang long.

Getting lots of good visits from family, but I'm having hard time getting friends squeezed in. I'm just exhausted after little things that I pass out hard after a short visit. Hospice says that we'll work together to beat that too.

Gotta jet. Time for my nap.

Any landing you walk away from...

Ok... weird event last night. In the middle of a deep sleep, I came crashing down on my bed. I hit so hard that I even bounced. Freakin weird.

I went to the Relay For Life event at PV this weekend. I had no idea just how many survivors would show and how many "team" members of those survivors would show. I saw SO many friends there... I was floored. I saw Gerry, Kathi and Traci, but by the time I came around again, I missed them. Overall it was a terrific event and I'm very grateful for Team Lifetouch for getting me over there and helping me deal with so many people. I don't do crowds really well, and the Lifetouch folks really saved my tooshie.

Today is my first radiation treatment of 3. These are for pain management on my shoulder. All the materials say that I'll be fine, but they have me face down while getting zapped... with my face resting on a sheet. It's SO hard to breathe that way. I'm going to see if I can arrange from ventilation today.

Tuesday and Wednesday more radiation. I'm not sure what comes next for me.