Trying to sleep and not think so much!

I think the next thing I have to master until I get to go to my first appointment with Dr. Keech on Monday is how to actually not think all the time. I woke up again this morning, and man you can get dizzy with all the spinning that your mind can do.

My friend, Dana, suggested I put together a binder to keep track of all my stuff during my "journey". This journey binder will have all my results, calendar to track all the appointments, etc. I got that started right away.

Part of that binder is my health records. I phoned Dr. Peterson's office (my primary care physician) and let them know I wanted to make a request to get a copy of the latest lab work, the ultrasound, the CT and then the liver biopsy. Heather there said, "I'll make you a copy of your entire record. You're friend had a terrific idea." Man! That was easy :-)

Had a test with the City Of Chico yesterday for a job position that they have an opening for. There were two test periods scheduled. There must have been 50 candidates at my test period. They'll be taking the top 20 scorers on the test for the interview. I feel pretty good about that.

Today will be another busy day. Need to follow up with a number of agencies, just to make sure I've covered all my bases. Need to "kid proof" the kitchen, the cats are into everything. Finally, I think I'll go hide a while in Warcraft and blow up some monsters.


Most of all, I'm going to try not to think too much!

This mornings smile.

I didn't sleep well last night. I guess that's no surprise. Once the cats woke me up bright and early, my brain started spinning out of control. Once that happened, it was all she wrote.


I got lots of great email from friends and family overnight. That was really terrific!


The big smile came from a message from Dr. Mary Macsalka. "Quit looking shit up on the internet!" You don't know who these people are posting this crap.


Basically, I will be saving my questions for the doctors and not my Google Search Bar!

OH Yeah... BTW

Yeah

I'm freakin scared!

The events leading up to today's news...

I was having fits with my belly while at work. My former employer has a really interesting training program. Pretty much they (programmers) throw new software applications at you and disappear like a fart on the wind. "Good Luck lil buckaroo! We've removed ourselves from app support!"

Yeah.... so I have this nasty freaking belly ache.
My doctor prescribes some meds to get me through the bull shit.
My doctor sends me in for some tests to make sure I'm not just stressing out.

During my ultrasound, a 9mm mass was detected on the left lobe of my liver.

I went in for a CT scan to confirm the mass, and Yup... it was indeed there.

I was scheduled for a colonoscopy (my 3rd in the last 8 years). They found polyps again... but the doctor I saw indicated these were "hyperplastic and not cnacerous".

So, where I'm at now is to figure out what body component passed the cancer over to my liver.

My doctor has me moving on to other doctors to further address this issue.

Needless to say, I'm freaked out beyond belief.

I found out today...

Today I found out that I have cancer in my liver.

The doctor phoned me with the crappy news. I felt for him. (I guess that I'm still a bit in shock over this news).

So I have adenocarcinoma in my liver.

I meet with a specialist on Monday.

I guess where I'm going with this blog is a little record of whats going on so that everyone can keep track ( and so I don't have to email/phone so many folks each moment I get news).

I give a little pre-history in the next few posts.